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My Last Relapse
My Last Relapse
The recovery podcast that says out loud what you’ve been secretly thinking about addiction, sobriety, and recovery.Matt Handy—who lived through two decades of heroin addiction, homelessness, and prison—cuts through the lies and fear-mongering that dominate traditional recovery programs.
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My Last Relapse

The recovery podcast that says out loud what you’ve been secretly thinking about addiction, relapse, and recovery.

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Life After Getting Cut Off by My Parents, Building a Pharmacy Empire & Battling the PBMs
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June 20, 2026

Life After Getting Cut Off by My Parents, Building a Pharmacy Empire & Battling the PBMs

Raised in a traditional Sri Lankan household, Tania’s education and achievement were everything. Originally on track for a career in medicine, Tania studied microbiology and completed hospital internships in Houston. But mentors encouraged her to explore sales and marketing, recognizing her strong people skills. Choosing to pivot away from medicine caused major conflict at home, and her family withdrew their support, forcing her to become fully independent and build her career from the ground up
Life After Graduating High School at 16, Selling Coke in Strip Clubs, and 2 Dead Boyfriends
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June 13, 2026

Life After Graduating High School at 16, Selling Coke in Strip Clubs, and 2 Dead Boyfriends

Apurva L. Vanguri-Weeks was the first American-born child in her family — raised by South Indian immigrant parents who didn't let her wear jeans, didn't let her date, and didn't let her cut her hair until senior year of high school. She was supposed to be a doctor. While at William & Mary on scholarship, she started drinking. The night she got drunk for real at a frat party, she came to with a 45-year-old recently-paroled man following her toward her dorm. Her RA got her to the hospital. Shortly
Life After Abu Ghraib, an HPD Officer's Knee on My Neck and Losing My Sheriff's Badge
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June 6, 2026

Life After Abu Ghraib, an HPD Officer's Knee on My Neck and Losing My Sheriff's Badge

Edwin Henderson is 45, an Army veteran with one Iraq deployment, and a former Harris County deputy who watched his law-enforcement career end on the ground outside a Houston club. He now works in business development at West Oaks Hospital's Patriot Support Program for veterans and runs Chefs in the City as an executive chef on the side. He grew up the latchkey son of a single mother in north Houston, helping look after an older brother who was born blind while his mom worked hourly jobs and play
Life After Marrying for Bricks of Cocaine, Smoking Meth On My Way to a C-Section & Being Homeless With 2 Toddlers
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May 30, 2026

Life After Marrying for Bricks of Cocaine, Smoking Meth On My Way to a C-Section & Being Homeless With 2 Toddlers

Kimberley Brooke is 19 years clean from methamphetamine and has spent the last twelve of those years sitting across from people on the worst day of their lives. She got there the long way. Raised in Amarillo by parents she calls “hippies practicing free love,” Kimberley was molested by an uncle starting at age five and grew up inside what she calls "the land of the great pretenders" — picket fence, two dogs, upper-middle-class home, none of it close to the truth. By middle school she had decided
Judge Juli Mathew: How the Juvenile Mental Health Court She Built Hit an 85% Success Rate
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May 23, 2026

Judge Juli Mathew: How the Juvenile Mental Health Court She Built Hit an 85% Success Rate

When Judge Juli Mathew took the bench at Fort Bend County Court at Law No. 3 in 2018, she made history twice over — first Indian American woman elected to a bench in the United States, and first Asian American judge in one of the most diverse counties in Texas. Three years later she built something that didn't exist in the state yet: a juvenile court designed around mental health. Born in Kerala, India and raised in Philadelphia after her family immigrated when she was ten, Mathew attended Penn
Life After Dying 4x, Getting Fired While on a Ventilator, & Still Being Suicidal at 18 Yrs Sober
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May 16, 2026

Life After Dying 4x, Getting Fired While on a Ventilator, & Still Being Suicidal at 18 Yrs Sober

Frank Parisi flatlined during heart surgery on May 8, 2023. He came back. Twenty-six days later he received the transplant that gave him a second chance — a heart from a nineteen-year-old donor. He'd grown up in Little Italy, the son of a father tied to organized crime, and spent a decade hooked on opiates before getting sober in 2011. By 2023 he was thirteen years clean, in the gym every day, and doing national marketing for a treatment company. Four doctors missed what was killing him before s
Life After Dating Alley Cats, Marrying & Divorcing a Cheater, and 14 Years Married to an Autistic Cop
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May 9, 2026

Life After Dating Alley Cats, Marrying & Divorcing a Cheater, and 14 Years Married to an Autistic Cop

Lori Bell was conceived when her father got drunk at a traveling circus, wrestled an anteater, got fired, and was dropped off in the next city — Kansas City, where he wandered into the unemployment office where her mother worked. Her dad was a third-generation Italian Vietnam veteran with PTSD and an eighth-grade education, and her mother was a Midwest farm girl with abandonment issues. Lori grew up in the chaos that followed — kicked-in walls, constant fighting, and a father who eventually disa
Life After Getting Caught With 5 Kilos of cocaine & 6 Felony Arrests in 2 Years
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May 2, 2026

Life After Getting Caught With 5 Kilos of cocaine & 6 Felony Arrests in 2 Years

David’s trouble started when the DEA caught him with five kilos of cocaine at the age of 20. On probation, he moved to St. Louis with court approval, finished college in three years, and was released early from probation. He built a subprime real estate business, but crooked deals and market shifts caused it to collapse. Back in Houston, he returned to high-end real estate and relapsed into heavy drinking and cocaine use. When his father died in 2005, his decline accelerated. Over the next few y
Life After Getting Shot, Stabbed, Detoxing Off K2 & The Choice I Made To Avoid 99 Yrs in Prison
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April 25, 2026

Life After Getting Shot, Stabbed, Detoxing Off K2 & The Choice I Made To Avoid 99 Yrs in Prison

Born in Kansas to Mexican parents, Omar was sent as a baby to live with his grandparents in Mexico. He returned to Kansas around age five where he learned English, was bullied and sexually abused, then drifted into gangs and substance use in his early teens. He became homeless but still finished high school, briefly attended college, and then dropped out as his addiction to pills, K2, cocaine, and eventually meth took over his life. This drug use strained and broke his relationship with his part
Life After Getting Kicked Out of the SEALs, OD'ing on Fentanyl & Trying to Commit Suicide by Volcano
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April 18, 2026

Life After Getting Kicked Out of the SEALs, OD'ing on Fentanyl & Trying to Commit Suicide by Volcano

Taylor Cavanaugh grew up in San Diego with drugs and alcohol in the house from early on. His father had substance problems and financial instability, and Taylor was eventually kicked out of high school for dealing ecstasy and somas. At 18, after getting mixed up in a stolen property situation, he checked into what turned out to be a lockdown psych ward in El Cajon — sharing a floor with old women with dementia and a Marine detoxing off heroin. He moved to Boston, where arrests and DUIs kept stac