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Alcohol Episodes

Life After Losing My Kids Twice, Selling Drugs on Reddit, & Living in a Trash Shelter
Feb. 28, 2026

Life After Losing My Kids Twice, Selling Drugs on Reddit, & Living in a Trash Shelter

Rachel’s parents divorced when she was just a baby, and she lived with her mom, who struggled with alcoholism and mental health issues, while her older sister went to live with their dad. By ninth grade, she was rarely at sch...
Life After Putting a Pistol To My Head 3 Times & Being a Recovery Speaker While Quietly Addicted to Opioids
Feb. 21, 2026

Life After Putting a Pistol To My Head 3 Times & Being a Recovery Speaker While Quietly Addicted to Opioids

Craig “Bubba” Norton was first exposed to addiction when his mother died from alcoholism in 1982. His father later entered treatment, and during a family program Craig realized at age 20 that he was also an alcoholic. After m...
Life After 5 Years on Skid Row, Owning a Treatment Center & Realizing the Industry is Built on Lies
Feb. 7, 2026

Life After 5 Years on Skid Row, Owning a Treatment Center & Realizing the Industry is Built on Lies

Richard Galvan began stealing, getting arrested and drinking vodka alone in sixth grade. He snorted and sold his Ritalin, stole his mother’s pills and drank cough syrup. By his early teens, he was selling pills, using meth, a...
Life After Seriously Injuring Another Woman While Driving Drunk, Getting a Felony DUI, and Attempting Suicide
Jan. 17, 2026

Life After Seriously Injuring Another Woman While Driving Drunk, Getting a Felony DUI, and Attempting Suicide

Jenifer grew up in a home marked by physical and verbal abuse, which shaped how she viewed trust and relationships. She got pregnant at 18 and had her son, Hunter, at 19, raising him mostly on her own. At 28, she married, but...
Life After Bipolar & Depression, Getting Locked in a Rubber Room, Quitting Alcohol and Picking Up Crack
Jan. 7, 2026

Life After Bipolar & Depression, Getting Locked in a Rubber Room, Quitting Alcohol and Picking Up Crack

Doug experienced abuse in early childhood, and at age 12 when his father left, he spiraled into severe depression, suicidality, and repeated psychiatric hospitalizations. As a teenager, he discovered alcohol and used it to ma...
Guest:Doug Smith
Life After Being an Ecstasy “Connoisseur” & MDMA-Fueled Raver, and the K-Hole That Scared Me Straight
Dec. 30, 2025

Life After Being an Ecstasy “Connoisseur” & MDMA-Fueled Raver, and the K-Hole That Scared Me Straight

Born in Italy to Russian parents, Dan came to the U.S. as a baby and grew up in a highly driven immigrant community near Princeton, New Jersey. An only child, he was pushed hard to be successful in academics and athletics, wi...
Life After Splitting a Cop’s Head Open and Getting Dumped in a Desert Wilderness Camp at 15
Dec. 23, 2025

Life After Splitting a Cop’s Head Open and Getting Dumped in a Desert Wilderness Camp at 15

Seeing him on this podcast for the first time in 13 years, Matt admits to his old friend Austin York that he robbed him during the chaos of their using days in Southern California. Like Matt, Austin got into trouble very youn...
Life After Burning 13 Holes in My Leg & 2 in My Junk, and Escaping a Life Sentence, and Killing Myself in the Hospital
Dec. 10, 2025

Life After Burning 13 Holes in My Leg & 2 in My Junk, and Escaping a Life Sentence, and Killing Myself in the Hospital

Chris grew up in Odessa, Texas, in a home where alcohol and drugs were part of everyday life. At 15, he altered his birth certificate to work in the oil fields. By 19, he was drilling, and by 25, he was running crews—building...
Life After Pawning My Wife’s Wedding Ring To Buy Coke and Running My Multimillion Dollar Company Into the Ground
Nov. 26, 2025

Life After Pawning My Wife’s Wedding Ring To Buy Coke and Running My Multimillion Dollar Company Into the Ground

Growing up in Spring, Texas, Jordan was a standout student and star athlete. Raised in a supportive, yet strict household, he excelled in sports and academics, graduated near the top of his class, and was inducted into his hi...
Life After Losing My Mom at 21, Marrying an Abusive Alcoholic, and Going to Jail for Defending Myself
Nov. 13, 2025

Life After Losing My Mom at 21, Marrying an Abusive Alcoholic, and Going to Jail for Defending Myself

Rachel grew up in Louisiana in a family marked by loss. Her older sister died of leukemia at age seven, leaving deep grief that shaped her childhood. At 13, she experienced sexual abuse, and by 21, she lost her mother to untr...
Life After Losing My Voice to Thyroid Cancer, Using a Karaoke Microphone To Speak for a Year, and Drinking During Drug Interdiction Missions
Nov. 6, 2025

Life After Losing My Voice to Thyroid Cancer, Using a Karaoke Microphone To Speak for a Year, and Drinking During Drug Interdiction Missions

Ted was sent to military school, later joined the Navy, and served during the Gulf War, stationed in Jacksonville and working drug interdiction missions off the coast of Venezuela. During his Navy service, he drank heavily, a...
Life After Losing My 3 Children, My Sister, and My Parents, Moving in With My Dealer, and Living Under a Bridge With My Husband
Oct. 30, 2025

Life After Losing My 3 Children, My Sister, and My Parents, Moving in With My Dealer, and Living Under a Bridge With My Husband

Candice grew up surrounded by addiction and loss. Both parents drank heavily, and by 11, she had lost her mom. Her dad died soon after, and by 19, most of her family was gone, including her sister, who was killed in a murder-...
Life After Childhood Sexual Abuse, 15 Years in Prison for Organized Crime, and Relapsing With a Weapon While on Parole
Oct. 23, 2025

Life After Childhood Sexual Abuse, 15 Years in Prison for Organized Crime, and Relapsing With a Weapon While on Parole

Brandon grew up in Houston with an abusive, alcoholic father and experienced trauma from sexual abuse at ages eight and 10. By 11, he had his first sip of alcohol, and by seventeen, he was charged with organized crime and beg...
Life After Having 2 Kids by 17, Losing My Brother to a Xanax OD, and Living In My Car
Oct. 16, 2025

Life After Having 2 Kids by 17, Losing My Brother to a Xanax OD, and Living In My Car

Karen married young and became a mom at 15. By 17, she had two children, and by 36 she was a grandmother. Her brother’s overdose from Xanax and alcohol at age 19 propelled her toward addiction recovery work, determined to hel...
Life After Homelessness, 2 DUIs, Too Many Jail Stays, a Baker Act Crisis, and a Prison Sentence
Oct. 9, 2025

Life After Homelessness, 2 DUIs, Too Many Jail Stays, a Baker Act Crisis, and a Prison Sentence

From Jason’s first drink at 17, his life spiraled into addiction, prison, and homelessness. He tried AA, NA, and church, but staying in recovery was tough, and a string of DUIs and prison sentences made things harder. While h...
Life After Flunking Out Of College, Multiple Inpatient Psych Stays, And The Murder of My Best Friend
Oct. 1, 2025

Life After Flunking Out Of College, Multiple Inpatient Psych Stays, And The Murder of My Best Friend

Andy grew up in Houston and started drinking in high school, escalating in college. After getting kicked out and switching schools, she eventually graduated while trying to keep her drinking under control. But when she enter...
Life After Becoming a Doctor, Being Forced Into Sober Living, and Discovering the Real Reason People Relapse
Sept. 24, 2025

Life After Becoming a Doctor, Being Forced Into Sober Living, and Discovering the Real Reason People Relapse

Dr. Kamal Shah’s perspective on addiction recovery is both deeply personal and scientifically informed. Addiction isn’t just behavior. It’s the brain, trauma, and the emotional patterns that keep people stuck. Over a decade ...