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Heroin Episodes

Life After Losing My Kids Twice, Selling Drugs on Reddit, & Living in a Trash Shelter
Feb. 28, 2026

Life After Losing My Kids Twice, Selling Drugs on Reddit, & Living in a Trash Shelter

Rachel’s parents divorced when she was just a baby, and she lived with her mom, who struggled with alcoholism and mental health issues, while her older sister went to live with their dad. By ninth grade, she was rarely at sch...
Life After Relapsing To Celebrate My One-Year Chip and Again With an 8-Month Old Baby
Feb. 14, 2026

Life After Relapsing To Celebrate My One-Year Chip and Again With an 8-Month Old Baby

Nikki grew up in a small town with a mother who struggled with alcoholism and periods of abuse but was also loving and devoted. As a teen, she began using substances like weed, pills, and whippets. At 19, she sought help from...
Life After 5 Years on Skid Row, Owning a Treatment Center & Realizing the Industry is Built on Lies
Feb. 7, 2026

Life After 5 Years on Skid Row, Owning a Treatment Center & Realizing the Industry is Built on Lies

Richard Galvan began stealing, getting arrested and drinking vodka alone in sixth grade. He snorted and sold his Ritalin, stole his mother’s pills and drank cough syrup. By his early teens, he was selling pills, using meth, a...
Life After Splitting a Cop’s Head Open and Getting Dumped in a Desert Wilderness Camp at 15
Dec. 23, 2025

Life After Splitting a Cop’s Head Open and Getting Dumped in a Desert Wilderness Camp at 15

Seeing him on this podcast for the first time in 13 years, Matt admits to his old friend Austin York that he robbed him during the chaos of their using days in Southern California. Like Matt, Austin got into trouble very youn...
Life After Skid Row at 19, Going to Treatment 60 Times, and My Dog and My Truck Getting Stolen by a Woman I Met in Detox
Nov. 20, 2025

Life After Skid Row at 19, Going to Treatment 60 Times, and My Dog and My Truck Getting Stolen by a Woman I Met in Detox

At the age of 17, Robert entered treatment for the first time for heroin, painkillers, and Dilaudid addiction. Over the next few years, he cycled through nearly 60 detoxes and programs across the country, spending several yea...
Life After Losing My 3 Children, My Sister, and My Parents, Moving in With My Dealer, and Living Under a Bridge With My Husband
Oct. 30, 2025

Life After Losing My 3 Children, My Sister, and My Parents, Moving in With My Dealer, and Living Under a Bridge With My Husband

Candice grew up surrounded by addiction and loss. Both parents drank heavily, and by 11, she had lost her mom. Her dad died soon after, and by 19, most of her family was gone, including her sister, who was killed in a murder-...
Life After Childhood Sexual Abuse, 15 Years in Prison for Organized Crime, and Relapsing With a Weapon While on Parole
Oct. 23, 2025

Life After Childhood Sexual Abuse, 15 Years in Prison for Organized Crime, and Relapsing With a Weapon While on Parole

Brandon grew up in Houston with an abusive, alcoholic father and experienced trauma from sexual abuse at ages eight and 10. By 11, he had his first sip of alcohol, and by seventeen, he was charged with organized crime and beg...
Life After Losing a Full Ride to UCLA, Becoming a Meth Head Dirtbag, and a Fentanyl Wake Up Call
Sept. 26, 2025

Life After Losing a Full Ride to UCLA, Becoming a Meth Head Dirtbag, and a Fentanyl Wake Up Call

Raised in a solid, loving family, Danny was a standout athlete with a full ride to UCLA for golf. His future was golden, but the lure of partying and a fast lifestyle spiraled into meth and heroin addiction, multiple jail sti...
Life After Planning My Own Death, Sleeping in a Stolen Car, and Withdrawing in Jail
Sept. 22, 2025

Life After Planning My Own Death, Sleeping in a Stolen Car, and Withdrawing in Jail

Scott’s last relapse ended with him withdrawing in jail, where for the first time since age 13 he made it past five days sober. Facing probation, restitution, treatment and childhood trauma, he found purpose through service w...